The brand new me again

Three more weeks and the world is going to welcome yet another new year, year 2011. And obviously this will be the time when most of us will be looking for answers to our new year's resolution, AGAIN.
How do you come up with yours? I personally think everyone creates one by thinking:
1) "what did we achieved this year?"
2) lesson learned I.e "I made few mistakes this year, hence I won't repeat it again" or "there were things I could have done with myself but I didn't"

The whole of 2010 is racing through my head right now. A lot had happened. I was in new york till april, did not want to leave, and came back to Malaysia. landed myself a job in June and it's now been exactly 6 months since I first started work. Got to travel quite a bit to Dubai and Abu dhabi (lucky me) for work and lost my american accent along the way!!! What did I learn from work? Quite a lot actually, but I got a lot more to learn. Thanks to my boss I've been given lots of opportunities. However, I am getting bored, maybe cause I'm impatient. I don't really get to do anything important, that help me make a difference to the company and my finance still suck. Do not understand how I received all As on my finance classes (which consist most of my credit hours) during my MBA! I really don't understand and it really suck.

Don't even go to my love life, it basically crash and burn as I always predicted due to my stupidity. But at least I'm not in a bigger mess as last year, but still it affects me at work. I hate men, it makes me lose focus. I hate relationships because it's only rosy for the first few months. Actually, I should hate myself as I unconsciously put a trap to myself so that I can't move forward. Good guys come and I'll run away. Unstable men come and I'm so drawn to them. The love charade episode of my life is the one part of my resolution that I'll never achieve. I tend to forget half way through the year on my lesson lesson learn and on what not to do!! Just shhhooooooot me.

So here I am, thinking of my resolution, where evey year I pledge to myself on being the brand new marsita again. I tentatively have an idea, especially on my bloody love life, but will get back to you on this, as everything is so uncertain and vague. Got three more weeks to go and I'll get back to ya on this!!